What are you hiding behind?

The past few days, I've been very inward. It was my birthday last week, and I've been really reflecting on how I want to live my life, and how I want to relate to the world.

The major lesson has been this:

Now is the time to let go of everything in conflict with your innermost essence. 

What does that mean? 

It means I’m going to make the fullest effort possible to make sure that every word I speak, every product I create, every action I take, represents me at the fullest. 

I’ve had to ask myself...what am I hiding behind? Why am I so afraid to just let myself go?

Truth be told...I’m afraid of failure. 

I’m afraid that if I speak my truth, nobody will listen. 

I’m afraid that if I bring my full self, cage-free, I won’t be accepted.

I'm afraid that if I birth products into the world that I love, nobody will like them.

It hits me at the root chakra...hard.

A lot of these thoughts are baloney. Some of these thoughts represent my ego being uncomfortable with parts of my truest essence. It’s not easy being sensitive, she says. It’s not easy to live a magical life in a world that doesn’t believe in magic. 

But that is ok. Because my heart, my core, my essence, knows that magic exists. She knows it is actually easier to be our full, authentic selves in the world. And she has the reins.

It takes a lot of energy to be somebody we’re not. 

It takes a lot of energy to play hide and seek with our essence. 

It takes a lot of energy to pretend to be different than who we are.

And in these days leading up to a new moon in Aquarius, it is time to let go of these old communication and relational patterns that no longer serve us.

I’m letting go of my fear of failure. Letting it wash away. 

I’m making sure that every word I speak resonates truth in my body. Full, harmonious, symphonic truth that I’d be happy to shout from the mountaintops without fear. 

That is the world I want to live in. A world where everybody speaks their essence. Where we no longer hide behind veils of fear and veils of ego, but where each one of us can really be free.

What are you hiding behind? What can you let go?

I invite you to feel really deeply into your heart, and ask her what she needs to feel more free. Therein lies the truth, and the next step on your journey.